I’ve been brainstorming every night this week, trying to seriously entertain any idea that floats into my mind. Contrary to what I was thinking a few days ago, I don’t think I want to depict the actual act of hiding something. The visuals I came up with were so terribly cliche that I decided that I didn’t want to go that route. I realized tonight that what this project is really about is living a dual life. When I was at the height of my depression, I would spend all of my energy during the day trying to appear happy. Then at the end of the day I would come home and explode.
I’m trying to think about how I could represent the mask I wore during the day. My thought was to merge the smiles with the anguished figures, so I put together a really really rough sketch in Photoshop, using my own face on top of one of the figures. I don’t know what to think, it’s either really awful or incredibly unsettling in a good way. What do you think?