I’m at a complete loss for what to do with this project. I went to the studio last night, hoping to sketch through my troubles. I worked on 5 minute gesture drawings with etching ink and lithographic crayon on newsprint, working completely out of my head with no references.
I felt like every sketch I drew looked the same, which is not a good sign when you’re trying to put together a series of works. It’s so hard to know whether to scrap everything yet again, or whether I should to stick with what I have and work through the problems. I’m brimming with indecision and doubt, and I’m struggling to find some kind of a concrete anchor that I can hold onto. All I know is that nothing feels “right” yet, which means that I have to keep pushing. I know from experience that if things don’t feel good at the sketching stage that they won’t get any better on the large scale.